My Everyday- in Sunshine & Wind

Vesper is the best Bond girl i would appreciate.

she's smart and also beautiful, with sparkling emerald eyes and innocent smile, indicating her special status in Bond's heart.

she's all the reasons for Bond's love and revenge in this series, for his chasing from Italy through Uganda to Chile, for his disturbed judgement giving rise to the unnecessary death, and all in all, she's the reason for the series "Quantum of Solace".

When she knew the love between her and 007 was a real emotion but definitely a real hurt to both, she chose to sacrifice herself for Bond's survival.

She's a victim for both men, the one she intended to save but worthless to save, whilst the other one who is the best man, she said, she'd ever met in her life even if the only thing left she could remember about him is his smile and his fingers.

"Once u've done something doesn't mean that u would have to keep doing it" tht's what encourages Bond to resign from Mdm M and start a new life with Vesper, his encourager.

Pitties thing is that what Bond is left with is merely a quantum of solace belonging to him and the beloved never knows that he forgives her, forgives himself...

On 19 Aug 2008,

 

Once DDnn dragged my hand as we met up at westmall, he blurted out:"Come! We have a big dinner tonight!"

I knew the reason but I thought he nearly forgot it since any hint abt this special day in the last week seemed to arouse nothing in his mind...

what a cunning DDnn~~

I never knew the Swensen's is such a popular place for the lucky b'day kids! On both sides of us, little kids with all their family members surrounded were happily looking at their busy parents. One is 4 yo & the other 5yo, judged from the number of their b'day candles...

We were 100% overshadowed by these lucky children if being compared with the celebration in our own childhood...

They have ice cream cakes, they have huge lego, they have all the Swensen's staffs sing Happy B'day Song to them together, and they r just 4 or 5 years old! They should get bored of all these lavish annual celebration before they reach 18yo...

 

DDnn&DDpn, at the same time, shared their poor little sad b'day stories embedded in their memory...

but DDnn should be blamed coz he always added some fake part in his story to make himself feel a little bit proud of his childhood -______-|||

anyway, we were at last stuffed at neck!

 

Happy Birthday to little DDpn & DDnn for 2 years old!!!

我的生命中曾到过很多地方，东方-我的被太阳早早叫醒的家乡，西方-我认识DDnn的浪漫安静的梦境，北方-我在中国大陆的心脏跳动了3年，南方的新加坡-我来回奔波的岛国，。。。可我好想去台湾！二十五个寒暑过后，我对台湾的印象还是小学教科书里的日月潭。。。阿里山的瓜子。。。到后来高山族的啊妹。。。

我被封闭着，见了各式各样的洋人，程度甚于亚洲小龙的台湾和那一片土地上的黄皮肤。。。

 

我小的时候爸爸出差，去国南方好多地方，深圳、广州、厦门、好多。。。但这些地方教科书里都没有课文写过，我唯独记得台湾。。。我问爸爸：

“爸爸去过台湾吗？”

“爸爸哪都能去就是不敢去台湾。”

“书上说那里可好了！”然后我开始文绉绉地背课文：“祖国的宝岛-台湾！。。。”

“。。。”爸爸沉默，看看妈妈。。。

 

为什么不敢去？为什么不能去？这在小孩子的脑袋里算是被蚀的月亮，一点一点地渐渐不问了。

 

看过黄磊和奶茶的《似水年华》，哭了，好像第一次这样无助的哭。第二次是看汶川的地震时。看过《年华》后的第一个念头：“好想亲眼看看台湾！”这个被我神化诗化的小岛。。。

 

喜欢看台湾的娱乐节目，作娱乐真的死心塌地，很单纯：看时可以肆无忌惮的开怀大笑，被小S的大方伶俐所折服。

一个《康熙来了》片断为小S添了很异样的光辉：

刚出道的依晨说，已经不可以在公众场合与男朋友手牵手了，那种生活是回不来的。。。说着声音变哽咽。。。。

小S渐渐收起上扬的嘴角：“不会啦，久了你就习惯了，习惯了你就会对人生有另外一种想法，就不会那么痛苦了。。。再呆个三四年，在演艺圈。”接着她又是微笑。

 

台湾的娱乐节目俗吗？是俗！可是这是草根，是草根最起码应有的娱乐吧。

 

如果再让我选一个城市，我想去台北或花莲！台北的遍地夜宵，具有“迷幻”嗓音的Yoga出生地-花莲~

 

台湾，我好想去！

 

海上生明月，天涯共此时。

 

 

One month before his 56 yo birthday, Daddy finally has his ideally "perfect-without-any-defects" (he said) Vehicle: Honda CR-V 2.4 ltr.

 

 

 

Daddy's taste is quite accountable, although its price is TERRIBLY above Mumy's expected amount, being nearly half of that of CR-V! But the value of this car really deserves the price! Tht's so comfortable to drive and even be around with the preeminent interior facility and decor!

 

CR-V, full named as "compact recreational vehicle" defined by Honda sales in UK or "comfortable runabout vehicle" by Honda Worldwide, is featured in all-wheel drive. It's classified as compact 4×4 of Crossover Sport Utility Vehicle(SUV).

 

Our whole family love this car and it becomes the 4th member among us!

Back in hometown, i once again felt the coolness of the north! It's so ideal! its really cool!

 

In singapore, my nose always got stuck! it terribly stuck me to death in those freezing air-con rooms! everytime i dragged myself in the air-coned, i wish to face the natural collness and wet wind in the hometown one more time :_(... hometown, everything is so soothing so dreamy...

 

I am so happy that i am now in hometown due to my last second decision to come back this summer!! pity tht DDnn couldnt come with me , instead, nn had a bad cold these days while i left... my poor little niu niu,,, wish u could get well soon before we can meet again!!

转贴Steve Jobs在Stanford University 2005 Graduation Ceremony上的演讲。多谢刘大哥！ 

I am honored to be with you today at your commencement from one of the finest universities in the world. Truth be told, I never graduated from college. This is the closest I've ever gotten to a college graduation. Today I want to tell you three stories from my life. That's it. No big deal. Just three stories.

The first story is about connecting the dots.

I dropped out of Reed College after the first 6 months, but then stayed around as a drop-in for another 18 months or so before I really quit. So why did I drop out?

It started before I was born. My biological mother was a young, unwed college graduate student, and she decided to put me up for adoption. She felt very strongly that I should be adopted by college graduates, so everything was all set for me to be adopted at birth by a lawyer and his wife. Except that when I popped out they decided at the last minute that they really wanted a girl. So my parents, who were on a waiting list, got a call in the middle of the night asking: "We have an unexpected baby boy; do you want him?" They said: "Of course." My biological mother found out later that my mother had never graduated from college and that my father had never graduated from high school. She refused to sign the final adoption papers. She only relented a few months later when my parents promised that I would someday go to college.

This was the start in my life.

And 17 years later I did go to college. But I naively chose a college that was almost as expensive as Stanford, and all of my working-class parents' savings were being spent on my college tuition. After six months, I couldn't see the value in it. I had no idea what I wanted to do with my life and no idea how college was going to help me figure it out. And here I was spending all of the money my parents had saved their entire life. So I decided to drop out and trust that it would all work out OK. It was pretty scary at the time, but looking back it was one of the best decisions I ever made. The minute I dropped out I could stop taking the required classes that didn't interest me, and begin dropping in on the ones that looked interesting.

It wasn't all romantic. I didn't have a dorm room, so I slept on the floor in friends' rooms, I returned coke bottles for the 5￠ deposits to buy food with, and I would walk the 7 miles across town every Sunday night to get one good meal a week at the Hare Krishna temple. I loved it. And much of what I stumbled into by following my curiosity and intuition turned out to be priceless later on. Let me give you one example:

Reed College at that time offered perhaps the best calligraphy instruction in the country. Throughout the campus every poster, every label on every drawer, was beautifully hand calligraphed. Because I had dropped out and didn't have to take the normal classes, I decided to take a calligraphy class to learn how to do this. I learned about serif and san serif typefaces, about varying the amount of space between different letter combinations, about what makes great typography great. It was beautiful, historical, artistically subtle in a way that science can't capture, and I found it fascinating.

None of this had even a hope of any practical application in my life. But ten years later, when we were designing the first Macintosh computer, it all came back to me. And we designed it all into the Mac. It was the first computer with beautiful typography. If I had never dropped in on that single course in college, the Mac would have never had multiple typefaces or proportionally spaced fonts. And since Windows just copied the Mac, it's likely that no personal computer would have them. If I had never dropped out, I would have never dropped in on this calligraphy class, and personal computers might not have the wonderful typography that they do. Of course it was impossible to connect the dots looking forward when I was in college. But it was very, very clear looking backwards ten years later.

Again, you can't connect the dots looking forward; you can only connect them looking backwards. So you have to trust that the dots will somehow connect in your future. You have to trust in something - your gut, destiny, life, karma, whatever. This approach has never let me down, and it has made all the difference in my life.  

My second story is about love and loss.

I was lucky D I found what I loved to do early in life. Woz and I started Apple in my parents garage when I was 20. We worked hard, and in 10 years Apple had grown from just the two of us in a garage into a billion company with over 4000 employees. We had just released our finest creation - the Macintosh - a year earlier, and I had just turned 30. And then I got fired. How can you get fired from a company you started? Well, as Apple grew we hired someone who I thought was very talented to run the company with me, and for the first year or so things went well. But then our visions of the future began to diverge and eventually we had a falling out. When we did, our Board of Directors sided with him. So at 30 I was out. And very publicly out. What had been the focus of my entire adult life was gone, and it was devastating.  

I really didn't know what to do for a few months. I felt that I had let the previous generation of entrepreneurs down - that I had dropped the baton as it was being passed to me. I met with David Packard and Bob Noyce and tried to apologize for screwing up so badly. I was a very public failure, and I even thought about running away from the valley. But something slowly began to dawn on me D I still loved what I did. The turn of events at Apple had not changed that one bit. I had been rejected, but I was still in love. And so I decided to start over.

I didn't see it then, but it turned out that getting fired from Apple was the best thing that could have ever happened to me. Theeaviness of being successful was replaced by the lightness of being a beginner again, less sure about everything. It freed me to enter one of the most creative periods of my life.

During the next five years, I started a company named NeXT, another company named Pixar, and fell in love with an amazing woman who would become my wife. Pixar went on to create the worlds first computer animated feature film, Toy Story, and is now the most successful animation studio in the world. In a remarkable turn of events, Apple bought NeXT, I retuned to Apple, and the technology we developed at NeXT is at the heart of Apple's current renaissance. And Laurene and I have a wonderful family together.

I'm pretty sure none of this would have happened if I hadn't been fired from Apple. It was awful tasting medicine, but I guess the patient needed it. Sometimes life hits you in the head with a brick. Don't lose faith. I'm convinced that the only thing that kept me going was that I loved what I did. You've got to find what you love. And that is as true for your work as it is for your lovers. Your work is going to fill a large part of your life, and the only way to be truly satisfied is to do what you believe is great work. And the only way to do great work is to love what you do. If you haven't found it yet, keep looking. Don't settle. As with all matters of the heart, you'll know when you find it. And, like any great relationship, it just gets better and better as the years roll on. So keep looking until you find it. Don't settle.

My third story is about death.

When I was 17, I read a quote that went something like: "If you live each day as if it was your last, someday you'll most certainly be right." It made an impression on me, and since then, for the past 33 years, I have looked in the mirror every morning and asked myself: "If today were the last day of my life, would I want to do what I am about to do today?" And whenever the answer has been "No" for too many days in a row, I know I need to change something.

Remembering that I'll be dead soon is the most important tool I've ever encountered to help me make the big choices in life. Because almost everything D all external expectations, all pride, all fear of embarrassment or failure - these things just fall away in the face of death, leaving only what is truly important. Remembering that you are going to die is the best way I know to avoid the trap of thinking you have something to lose. You are already naked. There is no reason not to follow your heart.

About a year ago I was diagnosed with cancer. I had a scan at 7:30 in the morning, and it clearly showed a tumor on my pancreas. I didn't even know what a pancreas was. The doctors told me this was almost certainly a type of cancer that is incurable, and that I should expect to live no longer than three to six months. My doctor advised me to go home and get my affairs in order, which is doctor's code for prepare to die. It means to try to tell your kids everything you thought you'd have the next 10 years to tell them in just a few months. It means to make sure everything is buttoned up so that it will be as easy as possible for your family. It means to say your goodbyes.

I lived with that diagnosis all day. Later that evening I had a biopsy, where theytuck an endoscope down my throat, through my stomach and into my intestines, put a needle into my pancreas and got a few cells from the tumor. I was sedated, but my wife, who was there, told me that when they viewed the cells under a microscope the doctors started crying because it turned out to be a very rare form of pancreatic cancer that is curable with surgery. I had the surgery and I'm fine now.

This was the closest I've been to facing death, and I hope its the closest I get for a few more decades. Having lived through it, I can now say this to you with a bit more certainty than when death was a useful but purely intellectual concept:

No one wants to die. Even people who want to go to heaven don't want to die to get there. And yet death is the destination we all share. No one has ever escaped it. And that is as it should be, because Death is very likely the single best invention of Life. It is Life's change agent. It clears out the old to make way for the new. Right now the new is you, but someday not too long from now, you will gradually become the old and be cleared away. Sorry to be so dramatic, but it is quite true.

Your time is limited, so don't waste it living someone else's life. Don't be trapped by dogma - which is living with the results of other people's thinking. Don't let the noise of other's opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary.

When I was young, there was an amazing publication called The Whole Earth Catalog, which was one of the bibles of my generation. It was created by a fellow named Stewart Brand not far from here in Menlo Park, and he brought it to life with his poetic touch. This was in the late 1960's, before personal computers and desktop publishing, so it was all made with typewriters, scissors, and polaroid cameras. It was sort of like Google in paperback form, 35 years before Google came along: it was idealistic, and overflowing with neat tools and great notions.

Stewart and his team put out several issues of The Whole Earth Catalog, and then when it had run its course, they put out a final issue. It was the mid-1970s, and I was your age. On the back cover of their final issue was a photograph of an early morning country road, the kind you might find yourself hitchhiking on if you were so adventurous. Beneath it were the words: "Stay Hungry. Stay Foolish." It was their farewell message as they signed off. Stay Hungry. Stay Foolish. And I have always wished that for myself. And now, as you graduate to begin a new, I wish that for you.

Stay Hungry. Stay Foolish.

Thank you all very much.

三十儿早上睡懒觉！等兴奋得从床上爬起来，想到的第一件事就是：不用上学啦！

 

心情愉悦的我在网上下了《长江7号》来看，看到周爸爸去世后掉眼泪了。大过年的竟然把自己整到哭！。。。真是的

 

下午跟璐璐买我们二人春节的年货！我俩忙忙活活开开心心的买了targets，主副不缺，吃喝俱全（经当晚证实我俩属于“眼大肚子小”型的）。

 

回家过年咯！觉得璐璐应该比我更迫不及待，在mrt上直嫌路长~~~~~

 

一回家后给这俩人忙得那叫一个带劲~ 终于在8点时，该打的电话打了，该视的频视了，能上网的上了，能download的down了，能吃的吃，能喝的喝。。。 心情好，看啥都是好！用今年“黑土”的话说：“好！！！！（“股涨！”）”

 

今年的年三十很难忘，像梦一样~~~~~~ 现在有点后悔没让璐璐再多住上一天啊。。。

 

美丽的除夕夜，美丽的回忆！在2008的狮城！

 

after 12 Dec:

13 noon- watching The Warloards premiere with DDnn at Chua Chu Kang;

13 night- boarding the plane heading to my home!

after tht- enjoy my holiday with parents and miss niu niu...

 

i'll rejuvenate next year 2008!

Don't look down upon oneself, no matter who did what to you and how terrible it is.

 

i still remembered the reason i established an english website. chosen to be a child playing with words, i was born to have interest in chinese & english. i started to have my first personal website and also the longest english one when i had my first love story..... it's my fate to be involved in a world with english. i urge myself to immerge in a foreign surroundings.

 

my speaking at the first place is very embarrased tht im shy to speak out a:"welcome". if some one laughs terribly on me at that moment, i had nothing to do, indeed, because i don't deserve to complain!

 

i said, then don't look down upon urself since u know u can do much better, no matter what cruel things others might do to u.

 

tht is the backdrop of this space. from my first dry blog till now, i dare not say my web does not have any weird expression to local-speakers, but i persist, up to now, to write and correct.

 

however, even though i communicate with people in english as normal, i can't kill my adore of Chinese! tht's the root and power of everything deep in me......  despite the abc in mouth, there is never a combination of english letters which can represent clearly the same feeling aroused in my heard as this characters as follows:

 

"仰天大笑出门去，我辈岂是蓬蒿人！"

 

This is unique exclusively in China! never ever an emotion is tentamount with this to a Chinese individual......

 

But life is life, u must know when to surrender, when to fight. as i said, ... , there should be a first place and a second one:

 

First make oneself strong, only upon this, then, secondly, u could make the image of others on you strong. okey, suppose u r entitled as a professor. if u keep giving wrong advice and leading loss, ur fame is hardly kept decent. subsequently, u should only blame urself for ur carelessness and incompetence.

 

ok, time to make it an end...~~~~